I’m not sure why or even how but I’ve found the last couple of days to not be quite so hard.  I have looked at numerous pictures and still I didn’t fall apart like I have in the past.  Part of me wonders if that is good or if it is bad.  Am I moving ahead?  I guess in some ways I am because I keep trying new things, I keep trying to do the right things for my children.  Sometimes I wish there was a plan to follow so I wouldn’t have to wonder so much.  I think I will just feel relieved to not be feeling like shit because tomorrow may bring those feelings.