Why is it that when my husband was alive I was always so tired.  He never slept more than five hours a night.  I always went to sleep before ten while he sat on the couch watching movies.  He would also always wake up in the early morning hours and get his coffee and read.  I of course slept in as long as possible.  I think he was annoyed with me because I wanted my sleep.  

Now he is gone and I find myself staying up until 12 or 2 am.  Why?  I went to bed at 11 last night but now I’m up at 3:30 in the morning.  I’m still tired but can not sleep.

Sorry hon, I wish I would have stayed up with you at night.  I wish I would have enjoyed waking up with you earlier on the weekends to start our day.  I wish now I could be with you.